Two-Faced

A Poem by JessChilling

Yeah, you made mistakes

Yes, I made my mistakes

I ignored red flags

Got swept up in emotions

I was so loyal to the idea you might return

You might be that person I first saw

But it was a mask

An act

And when you won

When you truly believe I was yours

Forever you gave up

Because I would never leave

I never asked for much

I never asked for too much

I asked for the same treatment

The same love

The same compassion you offered

Promised at the beginning

And that was on me for not seeing that

That was on me for not realizing

The beauty and power I had within myself

Because I deserve blessings

I deserve consistency and unconditional love

When you got tired of the act

You made love conditional

And it’s my fault for staying

I am responsible for the mess that is my life

I am not going to blame you for my actions

I am not going to blame God or the Devil.

God gave us free will

To choose how we act

I take full responsibility

for my short comings

I will learn to accept

grow from them

I can only speak for me

For I am only responsible for me